Thursday, December 23, 2010
As I write this, I am crying tears of joy…
This past week has been one of the hardest weeks for me at New Life. With all the unrest and the cholera epidemic all of our teams have cancelled. I don’t blame them, Haiti has become a place that people fear… as I watch and hear the news, I would be afraid to come here too.
When our last team cancelled, I called my mom crying and I told her that my Heart was just broken for the people of Haiti. Most of the world has forgotten about them and the ones that haven’t, can’t come because of the unrest. I asked her “what are we going to do about Christmas?” I told her that we had 2 containers come in, but we gave almost all of it away to other orphanages and tent cities, just like we always do… I never regret doing this as God always provides for us. Now for the first time I felt like I should have held back some things just in case… I was questioning giving it all away.
My Mom reminded me that in her 34 years in Haiti, that God has never let New Life down. I wanted to have her faith, but it was hard…
During this week I couldn’t help but wonder how in the world I am going to come up with 102 presents and special food for all of our kids… I would lay In bed at night and cry and wonder “why did I give it all away?” if I only would have kept some, we would have a really great Christmas, but now I have nothing for them.
I had a talk with the kids and told them the situation. I told them that we would have a party on Christmas Eve and a Christmas day dinner with a cake to celebrate Jesus’ Birthday. We still had one team coming after Christmas and they were bringing things for Christmas. They were happy, but inside, I felt sad.
We had 4 people come and with them they brought 10 boxes of Christmas lights… yea!! So we put them up and the kids were so happy! … In my mind I was still trying to figure how to make Christmas for the kids…
Yesterday, we had one girl come from a team that had cancelled…I had never met the girl before and she had never been to Haiti. Today, together we opened her suitcase and she brought for the kids 10 more boxes of lights, Christmas carol CD’s , 2 Christmas movies, a Christmas tree, decorations and a beautiful star to place on the top.
Today, we played the music, made decorations for the tree, strung lights and decorated the Children’s Home. The kids had permanent smiles on their faces!
Tonight we planned on watching a movie and eating popcorn, but while we were getting everything ready, they were playing worship songs and singing so loud that you could here it all the way down to the Guest House…
When I went down there… they were singing the song “How Great is our God”, it sounded like angels were singing. I looked around at the most beautiful place… lights everywhere, every pole decorated and a beautiful lighted star on the top of our tree…
As we sat down to watch our movie… Valter from YWAM and his team came over and told me that they fed 2 Tent Cities today, but had so much food left and wanted to know if they could give it to us? They backed the truck up and brought BBQ chicken and rice and beans and so much food. They even brought the plates and silverware. The team started serving our kids and all our employees the most beautiful dinner.
I will tell you that at that moment I was totally overwhelmed. To think that I could sing a song and say the words “How Great is our God”, and not truly have the faith inside that he is Great?
My tears have not stopped…as I look out over our beautiful place, filled with Christmas everywhere, and I didn’t have the faith to give it completely to God… and he had it all under control the whole time.
God is teaching me new things everyday…
I am crying tears of joy at the Greatness of the God I serve.
Even in my lack of faith, God came through, just as he always has…
I realized once again in my life…
THAT THERE IS NOTHING IMPOSSIBLE FOR GOD.
Dan and Sherry Frederick Moesly xxoo
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